Life goes on

We have 176 days left until our special day. It seems to be speeding by. When we first got engaged we had over 300 days. In the last week Chris finally had an off day and we went wedding band shopping. When Chris bought my engagement ring he also purchased the band so now it was time to figure out what he wanted. It was so much fun and yet felt so unreal to be picking out his wedding band. It was weird looking at a ring on his finger. We also continue to look up songs. There are so many songs out there I feel like we are getting "song overload." We have a pretty good list set right now we just need to narrow things down a little further, which is the hard part.

Now another matter has come up in our wedding, if we didn't have enough to deal with, now one of our groomsmen is moving to Colorado. Clayton is Chris' roomate right now and one of his best friends in the world. They have been living together for about the year and a half considering they lived together in their fraternity house and now in an apartment. His oldest brother lives in Colorado and he went to visit him last week and obviously fell in love with it. He applied for a job, did a phone interview, and got the job. Now Monday he will find out how soon he has to arrive in Colorado. Right now it all seems unreal. With the two of them living together the matter of the apartment has to be resolved. Their lease was to go up middle of this month but they are suppose to give her a 30 day notice, which they didn't have at the time. Hopefully their land lady will be understandable and let them out of the lease instead of having to renew it for another 6 months. Chris would be unable to live there by himself and not many people are looking to move out to room with him at the moment. I have been so use to seeing Clayton almost every other day for the last year and a half. He is more than Chris' friend and roomate, he is my friend and like a brother to both of us. Since Clayton is accident prone, we have been through alot of things with him in the last year a half, which includes wrecks and a very scary couple nights in the hospital after a boating accident. We also have been there to see him through girls he has dated as well as him recently getting back into church, a true blessing. Not only have we been there with him, he has been there with us. He has seen us fight and argue. He was one of the only 4 to know when and how Chris was goin to ask me to marry him (the other 3 consisting of my dad, Chris' dad and another friend). We have all been there to laugh and cut up at all hours of the night. I can't imagine having him hours away from us, especially when so much is going to be happening in the next few months that I need him here for. It is going to be hard simply calling him to say "happy birthday" instead of simply walking into their apartment. Once he leaves I won't see him until the day of our rehearsal dinner. After the wedding I fear I won't see him ever again. With him living in a completely different state on the other side of the country, a plane trip away, it will be nearly impossible for us to see each other often and for him to be apart of mine and Chris' life. I am extremely happy for him and he deserves this job. At the same time I don't want him to go, which in return makes me feel selfish for wanting him to stay. I am not just losing Chris' roomate or a friend, I am losing what feels like a member of my family. As much as Clayton may hate to admit it, he is going to miss us too :) Hopefully things will work out better than I anticipate. For now we continue to plan as normal. At the moment I am trying to push the idea of him moving out of my head and concentrate on planning our wedding and life in general. I know God had a plan, for Chris and I as well as Clayton. I can't step in the way of God's plan for Clayton, which could turn into the best decision of his life. I wish nothing but the best for him in everything he does.